I am not angry with her. Dreamgirl did what was right for her. I have no problems with that. I am sad. It is going to take me a while to get over her. I had never felt for a women like that before. She is something special and it will take a while to get use to the fact that she is no longer in my life.
I know there are things I could have done to avoid this. I kept on putting things off thinking I could take care of them later. We all do think in relationships, put things off thinking you have all the time in the world. I will have to remember for next time to not put those things off.
Our one year anniversary would have been on this Sunday. I enjoyed the year we had together. After I get over Dreamgirl I think I will be able to look back at this year and smile. It was a good experience for me. I know more about myself now. I do not see that year as a waste.
I wish Dreamgirl all the best. I want her life to the best it can be. I still care for her and I want her to find what will make her happy.
Who knows what tomorrow holds for me. This is just another reminder to live in the present.
